All of my ramblings on one site
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Meet Me in Montauk
Whenever I hear a loud obnoxious car driving (screaming) down the street, I realize you really did come over. Then I realize it's not you. Then I realize I'm stupid. Then I realize I'm putting myself down. Then I realize I'm disoppointing my therapist. Then I realize I'm too broke to even have a therapist. Then I realize I need to talk to my manager about my big promotion (Bagger-->Cashier whoooooo0o0o0o0oooo). Then I realize I did that this morning. Then I realize she told me to smile more or else they'll be reluctant to show me to the public. And while she's talking I realize my manager has a lisp. And then I realize I'm not listening to anything she's saying. And then I realize that this is why they won't promote me. And then I realize that I'm too broke to afford therapy. And then I realize I go to therapy partially because of my social skills. Then I realize how stupid I looked at Dom's last night. Then I realized you're still not here. Then I realized I'm stupid for having high hopes. Then I realize I'm going out later. Then I realize that you are too. With your, what I consider, ex. Then I realize I'm putting myself down again. Then I realize I'm going out later, so all of these wild naked running barbaric paranoid thoughts will disappear And then I realize I could see you tomorrow Then I realize I have to go back to my moms Then I realize that I hate being at my moms Then I realize I hate being at my dads Then I realize my phones been silent for hours Then I realize my mouth has been shut for hours Then I realize my hands been empty for hours Then I realize I miss you Then I realize you're still not here Then I realize I'm going to have to live with it Then I realize nothing in my life is going according to plan Then I realize that my therapist gave me a "goals ladder" Then I realize I haven't filled it out yet Then I realized my therapists going to be disoppointed in me again Then I realize I have homework to do Then I realize schools monday Then I realize I'm not very excited for it Then I realize my life is routine as fuck Then I realize I have to leave this town. In August. In August.. two lane blacktop
4:15 p.m. - 2011-01-29
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The past the present, and the future
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