All of my ramblings on one site ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Homewreckers are gonna homewreck Today: Failed my license test Heard rumors that I was being cheated on Went to work five minutes later Took multiple personal breaks to avoid throwing up or vomiting infront of anyone My mom pulled me into the office and asked me what was wrong, and all I could do was cry So she gave me permission to take my dinner early and take however long I needed So I met Devin in our usual dinner spot (a secluded sidewalk by our house), and cried and asked questions After a half hour I called in and said I couldn't come back So me and Devin walked home together and laid down and talked, and cried, and hugged, and kissed, and cried, and talked. The girl who took part in the second half of the rumor cussed me out before I could even acuse her of anything At work I planned on leaving him, and moving into my dads house permanently. As I predicted, this could be dangerous, or amazing. And right now it's both. I don't want to talk to anyone. I don't want to do anything but cry. I forgave him, because he didn't do anything. I don't believe his word alone, or before others, but I heard it from mulitple people who were at the party that I know wouldn't stick up for him and help him hide. Maybe I'm stupid, or maybe I'm taking a leap of faith for the best. Among the slew of things that have happened today, I planned on coming home and relapsing for the first time in a long while. I don't even have the stomach to drink and put myself to sleep. Getting fucked up would only make me think more and get more upset. So I think I'll do what every broken hearted girl does, and suck it up and move on liked I've had to do before. I'm done here for now. 9:18 p.m. - 2011-07-28 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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